Green, Green Grass and other news

After the 50+ mm of rain last week and a follow-up of 2.5 on Monday night, it has become a verdant,lush and fecund looking land again. All we need is frolicsome lambs with wiggly tails, calves at udder and piglets wallowing in mud. It has delighted my eyes for almost a week and has soothed a very frazzled, tired, emotionally spent mind.

I am now on Jolidays for 10 weeks and in that time I hope to start the 'ferty' treatment - Specialist visit tomorrow. I had my bloodtest yesterday and will find out results Monday. After 5 years of denial and hoping for the best naturally its time to try again with assistance - we are different people after 5 years and I don't think we will be repeating the same mistakes from that time...hopefully no she-devil from the pits of hormone hell.

It won't be easy but biology does'nt come into it anymore - it's not the biologically clock ticking, I've contemplated, I've bargained, I pleaded and now, I just have to do it, build a bridge, leave the pity party and be pro-active - I did it with going to Uni and I can do it now I have a support structure that is amazing, my family, Mr Grump and my SCA pals and othe friends and I am doing what my destiny is telling me to do - follow the path and finding my bliss -be a teacher, be a mother, be a supporter of living.

Rosella in the grass - a bit out of focus but still a delight to have in the front yard!